GOOD BYE THIS IS MY LAST POST GOOD BYE HEARTBROKEN HOPE WE NEVER MEET AGAIN! THANKS FOR ALL MY FRIENDS!

TROUBLE MIND

Recantly my friend had been ..... with someone at night. she/he always facebook at this momment. at first i thought she do this because she adicted to it. then i notice L.M.Y.S facebook only that friend which i call .C.E.R.L are facebooking. i find this mind disturbing ! I dont know what to do. maybe it nithing but i fell there is something.the question is what busines it has with me?who i am to L.M.Y.S .All i can do is burry my inner heart in me as i always do. What else can i do? i dont what else can i do as i am a coward. i mean who will like me might as well keep quit, then everybody happy. though it seem to others it is very obvious but i will try to conceal my inner heart so all can be rejoice. This is a secret that never should be spoken. i know that he/she will never like me. for what can L.M.Y.S look in me? once i confess to my dear friend and being rejected. i will not repeat the same mistake. if L.M.Y.S didnt like me then so be it. if this is the case then why am i here craping? this is because i did'nt even have the courage to confess!! I wish i know what he/she thinking. but i dont even know as i not a good talker and very bad at communicating. i was never good when talking to the one i love. If he/she like that person than so be it. I guess i will suffer alone as usual !

I GUESS IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE!!!!!!!!!!

HEAL MY PAIN

PLEASE HEAL MY HEART!!!
I KNOW THIS IS CHILDISH BUT I CANT HELP IT! THE FEELING OF IN BETWEEN F AND L IS PAINFUL

HEARTPAIN

MY HEART WILL NEVER BE THE SAME OH I HOPE I CAN BURRIED THE PAIN IN MY HEART!!!!

PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME LIKE THAT MY.............

HEARTBROKEN

I HOPE YOU FIX MY HEART SINCE YOU HURT MY HEART !!!!!!



Heartbroken

                    For people who is my age, i can be quite naive in the affair of the heart. from the day i born i had no problems with my studies(if i work hard), but i always find it hard to express myself. i always feel like i was on the edge of unstadiness when i try to express myself from the moment my eyes encounter with "friends" at my earlier year even as earlier as pre-school. I had always dread at the notion of talking my heart out  to others unlike the rest wgo find it easier to talk to friens about thier emotion, but that doesnt post much trouble to me as i previously had fews friends.Now that i found real friends it is more harder for me to express myself. that okay i guess unable to express myself to friends since friends usually know what you think before you speak of anything. It is not enough that i cannot/can't express myself.I now have to encounter about problems of the heart, it is quite a painful experinces expecially when you have immense feeling about a person whom shall not be name here. i dont know what to do and say. i got crush with someone.i dont know when who i shall call M . E.. to know what M . E thnking. M . E always seem to be happy with others except me recently and i dont know why and M . E had said me very "fan". Last time M . E is happy arround me recently  act like i am annoying and trying  best not to offend me. M . E had ignore every of my messages and act as if i annoying, i suspect M . E liking someone else as M . E seems happy arround that someone.I suspect M . E knows my feeling and is reject me slowly but still being kind i seriously dont know what to do.I had ask friends in a social network about it and the most inspiring answer are 1. M . Edoesnt like me,2 M . E tried to meke me jealous 3. M . E doesnt worth my time.Me, personally think the answer is 4-M . E is rejecting me softly.you can call me sensitive but i know best for i am familiar with rejection. I always had and probably always will been rejected. I had come to know the wind before rejection comes, I always smell them coming. Now i smelling it is coming i dont know when but soon.

love?

what is love? iI never experience before
i hope some one can show me the way so i can show others like my friend old pal



                                        

I ONCE HAD A DREAM

my heart was lost yet was crush therefore i live in the net-internet. for what i am if i cannot online people use to said me addicted to internet but that because i wanted to escape from the reality. A reality that hurt my heart. that my dream whihc i carry from years bak is yet again crush even when i now grown older. much much older

my heart was found but yet crush!

my biggest wish since my old days in high school is to fufil my dream which had fail.Twice i tried twice i fail. Now before this dream i dare not triy to reach and act like a COWARD. This dream of mine had once become  closed to me yet now so far like, it had become others dream. The result of being achieve by others. this is one thing i dare not think of and wish isnt true. i only had myself to blame for being too coward to reach my hand to it.

it cant be helped i guess. i was rejected once by dream for i had rejected from


all kind of relationship

teacher
neighbours
society
I cant help being a coward as it had became my nature.
NOW FOR THAT REASON I WILL BE COME A LONNER FOR WHAT ELSE CAN I BE WHEN I LOST MY HEART TWICE
i guess i can blame no one but me. A BIG COWARD.
cant even voice out not even to achieve dream but reach only
i cant even do that

   WHAT AM I IF I AM NOT A COWARD ?