I ONCE HAD A DREAM

my heart was lost yet was crush therefore i live in the net-internet. for what i am if i cannot online people use to said me addicted to internet but that because i wanted to escape from the reality. A reality that hurt my heart. that my dream whihc i carry from years bak is yet again crush even when i now grown older. much much older

my heart was found but yet crush!

my biggest wish since my old days in high school is to fufil my dream which had fail.Twice i tried twice i fail. Now before this dream i dare not triy to reach and act like a COWARD. This dream of mine had once become  closed to me yet now so far like, it had become others dream. The result of being achieve by others. this is one thing i dare not think of and wish isnt true. i only had myself to blame for being too coward to reach my hand to it.

it cant be helped i guess. i was rejected once by dream for i had rejected from


all kind of relationship

teacher
neighbours
society
I cant help being a coward as it had became my nature.
NOW FOR THAT REASON I WILL BE COME A LONNER FOR WHAT ELSE CAN I BE WHEN I LOST MY HEART TWICE
i guess i can blame no one but me. A BIG COWARD.
cant even voice out not even to achieve dream but reach only
i cant even do that

   WHAT AM I IF I AM NOT A COWARD ?