Heartbroken

                    For people who is my age, i can be quite naive in the affair of the heart. from the day i born i had no problems with my studies(if i work hard), but i always find it hard to express myself. i always feel like i was on the edge of unstadiness when i try to express myself from the moment my eyes encounter with "friends" at my earlier year even as earlier as pre-school. I had always dread at the notion of talking my heart out  to others unlike the rest wgo find it easier to talk to friens about thier emotion, but that doesnt post much trouble to me as i previously had fews friends.Now that i found real friends it is more harder for me to express myself. that okay i guess unable to express myself to friends since friends usually know what you think before you speak of anything. It is not enough that i cannot/can't express myself.I now have to encounter about problems of the heart, it is quite a painful experinces expecially when you have immense feeling about a person whom shall not be name here. i dont know what to do and say. i got crush with someone.i dont know when who i shall call M . E.. to know what M . E thnking. M . E always seem to be happy with others except me recently and i dont know why and M . E had said me very "fan". Last time M . E is happy arround me recently  act like i am annoying and trying  best not to offend me. M . E had ignore every of my messages and act as if i annoying, i suspect M . E liking someone else as M . E seems happy arround that someone.I suspect M . E knows my feeling and is reject me slowly but still being kind i seriously dont know what to do.I had ask friends in a social network about it and the most inspiring answer are 1. M . Edoesnt like me,2 M . E tried to meke me jealous 3. M . E doesnt worth my time.Me, personally think the answer is 4-M . E is rejecting me softly.you can call me sensitive but i know best for i am familiar with rejection. I always had and probably always will been rejected. I had come to know the wind before rejection comes, I always smell them coming. Now i smelling it is coming i dont know when but soon.